I felt great today. Completely renewed by group last night. Also, the coffee got me wired and productive.
I told Dr. Hirsh about how angry i was after last week's session. He said it's good for me to make a habit of expressing my anger, especially at the time that i feel it. And i felt completely comfortable telling him.
He said i might not realize the capacity of my self-conscious. That's it's like a sponge. Sometimes i hope that things that i hear sink in and don't just go out the other ear.
He also said that i have skills and abilities that i'm not aware of. That i can use this knowledge to rely on them and trust that they will get me through the pain that i feel. Something to think about.

I told him how i think of the things in my life that help me to not sink, help me to hang on. That while i was walking to the subway i thought about Kristeen's music like a rope, one i can hang on to and pull myself back up out of the quicksand.
So Dr. Hirsh looked up KY on iTunes and asked me to name my favorites. "Life's Not Short It's So Long" and "The Depression Contest" were the two i named right off the bat. Then he asked me if i knew The Eels. I don't, so he played this song which is perfect: